Carousel

Do you ever feel like your life is a carousel ride? I love Carousels. The horses go up and down and are incredibly fun to ride while you go round and round. But sometimes while on the ride it can start to feel a little monotonous or you can even begin to feel sick. That is how I have been feeling this week.



I love my life. My children make me so happy, they are a lot of work, but they are the joy of my life. I love my husband and he too truly makes me happy. Most of the time I can't complain about my life. It is good! But this week, I have been feeling a little sick.



Last Monday night Landon found out that he had been dismissed from his program. He has received 2 C's and 1 B- and that constitutes dismissal. It has been a week of surreal feelings and a lot of worrying. It truly feels like someone has ripped my future out of my hands. Landon was 6 months from graduating and we would be moving on with our lives. Finally out of the poor college student era and on to building stability and a growing, budding future. It was so close that I could taste it, and while it is not gone entirely darkness has veiled it again.


Landon still intends on completing his program. We will fight through this somehow, by either appealing the decision of his professors or reapplying for the program. It just adds time on to our ride. So, life becomes a little monotonous for us and for now we feel a little sick. But, just as on a carousel the ride is still fun. I still have babies who love me and bring me joy. My husband, while floundering a little now is a good, strong man who loves the gospel and will find a way to take care of us. I have been blessed with good friends and family who will help us through the nauseousness. And then, I will begin to get my bearings and enjoy the ride again.